Day 53 - a testing day

Bee Coz I.... had training all day it was another day out of the office, another catered training with lots of tempting food, food filled with yummy calories and fat, lucky for me i had a can of tuna, diet yoghurt and figs in my bag so i just chose to avoid the buffet.

Today was also a testing day emotionally as a person from my past was at the training, this person was a very close friend who ran off with the first real love of my life, i was devo'ed at the time but over the years i realised that i was not so sad about losing him more that i felt i was betrayed by a friend and lost a good friend out of it all, the guy was a bit of a plonker anyway, they ended up marrying and having two cute kids together and having mutual friends our paths had crossed a number of times over the 19 years and that was fine, they recently separated which is sad.

Today there was one very awkward moment when she was talking to another participant about the break up and turned to me and referring to the fact that he is stressing her our by wanting to reconcile and she said "he is so annoying you can have him back now Barb". That kind of shocked me and those listening looked at me to see what my reaction would be, i just chuckled and said "you made your bed" chuckled again and walked out to get lunch. She sat next to me at lunch and we actually had a good laugh about old school days so i guess it got rid of the elephant in the room.

After the training i came home and was starving and thinking about my weird day and felt for the first time like i needed a junk fix, i knew it was just a response to an emotionally interesting day, so instead of fixing it all with food i called Mucker and had a chat then went for an interval training session, i felt so much better for that approach and glad to recognise that i have changed that behaviour, exercise is better than junk!

Had a great dinner of grilled fish and tabuli then went to bodybalance.

A sort of testing (which i passed lol ) but good day over all!

Night night Bee

B'fast: chicken carrot and salad on wholemeal roll (subway low fat option)
Lunch: tuna, yoghurt, and prunes.
Dinner: grilled fish and tabuli.